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Poetry is the art of uniting pleasure with truth.  -Samuel Johnson

Poetry catches a lot of slack in this modern literary world of vampires and hunger games (guilty on the latter). It’s either dubbed too emotional, too hard to read, or just plain boring. Austin likes to joke that anyone can be a poet, anything a poem—which is ironically poetic itself, although he’d never admit it because he is a skeptic and usually in a bad mood (medical school).

I love poetry. It is a religion for me; beautiful, sacred, a holy place of words and broken sentences. Vertical magic.

A few of my favorite poems below, including one I wrote long ago for a 7pm poetry class with the scariest professor I’ve ever met. I saw her smile only once.

Authors (in order): Mary Oliver, Mary Oliver, Margaret Atwood, Hafiz, Margaret Atwood.

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 The Journey

 
One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice–
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do–
determined to save
the only life you could save.

 

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Wild Geese
 
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.
 
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Habitation

Marriage is not
a house or even a tent

it is before that, and colder:

The edge of the forest, the edge
of the desert
the unpainted stairs
at the back where we squat
outside, eating popcorn

where painfully and with wonder
at having survived even
this far

we are learning to make fire

 

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Even
After
All this time
The Sun never says to the Earth,
“You owe me.”

Look
What happens
With a love like that,
It lights the whole sky.

 

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Against Still Life

Orange in the middle of a table:It isn’t enough
to walk around it
at a distance, saying
it’s an orange:
nothing to do
with us, nothing
else: leave it aloneI want to pick it up
in my hand
I want to peel the
skin off; I want
more to be said to me
than just Orange:
want to be told
everything it has to say
And you, sitting across
the table, at a distance, with
your smile contained, and like the orange
in the sun: silent:Your silence
isn’t enough for me
now, no matter with what
contentment you fold
your hands together; I want
anything you can say
in the sunlight:
stories of your various
childhoods, aimless journeyings,
your loves; your articulate
skeleton; your posturings; your lies.
These orange silences
(sunlight and hidden smile)
make me want to
wrench you into saying;
now I’d crack your skull
like a walnut, split it like a pumpkin
to make you talk, or get
a look inside. But quietly:
if I take the orange
with care enough and hold it
gentlyI may find
an egg
a sun
an orange moon
perhaps a skull; center
of all energy
resting in my handcan change it to
whatever I desire
it to beand you, man, orange afternoon
lover, wherever
you sit across from me
(tables, trains, buses)if I watch
quietly enough
and long enoughat last, you will say
(maybe without speaking)

(there are mountains
inside your skull
garden and chaos, ocean
and hurricane; certain
corners of rooms, portraits
of great grandmothers, curtains
of a particular shade;
your deserts; your private
dinosaurs; the first
woman)

all I need to know
tell me
everything
just as it was
from the beginning.

 

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We’re stuck, suffocating.
Gasping and clawing
searching for air 
in the cruel metal box.
Screaming for the clown man to stop.
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Our limbs tossed like salad
bang and bruise,
bust and bumble,
a montage of arms and legs.
I can’t breathe.
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As the oldest, I try to console her,
it must end soon. Surely—
the wheels will slow, stop, turn us right side up,
outside in, back to little girls.
Here,
just hold on to me and stare through the
paint chipped
mud caked
rubbed raw
cracks
And focus instead on the
cotton candy
caramel apple
love sick
mouths.
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And there, grandma!
Waving like a loon,
ice-cream on her chin,
watching her babies
being murdered by the round metal snake.
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What Bleeker Said

I wish writing was beautiful. I wish it was like this picture; romantic and inspiring, wistful and admirable. I wish that when someone asked me what I do, they pictured this instead of some sort of cliched artist who watches a lot of TV and doesn’t have a proper diet.

I wish, often, I was not a writer.

I have a quote taped near my desk by Gore Vidal. It says, “I was born a writer. If you’re born that, you can’t change it. You’re going to do it whether you want to or not.”

I try to remember that when Austin asks for the 100th time when my writing is going to make money or when a friend asks if I’ve ever thought about getting a part time job, just for something to do.

I try to remember Lady Gaga and that I was born this way.

I try to remember that being a nurse wouldn’t be all that better.

A few weeks ago I met with someone who wants to write a book and she made a comment that has haunted me ever since. She said, “writing just comes so easy to you.”

There is a scene in the movie Juno when the main character (Juno) tells her best friend Bleeker that she’s in love with him. He says, “You mean as friends?” And she says no, for real, because he’s the coolest person she’s ever met and he doesn’t even have to try. There’s a dramatic pause here and then he responds, “I try really hard, actually.”

I think about this scene whenever someone mentions it’s all so easy for me; the writing, the blogging, the well constructed sentences. I try really, really hard actually. And even then, I fail a lot. I write a lot of really crappy things and throw out more than I keep. I use too many commas and insert more than my share of misplaced modifiers.

I live the same life as most every other writer: in a state of constant failure.

I wish it was easy. I wish I sat down every day and wrote something great. I wish that when someone asked what I do for a living, I didn’t have to make something up. I wish saying “I’m a writer” didn’t make you sound like an asshat.

I wish I was Anne Lamott.

There comes a time in every writer’s life when you write terrible sentences like “there comes a time in every writer’s life” and just accept your fate. This is it. This is me. I’ll be here writing bad sentences and banging my head on the desk until I’m 100 years old and turn into a giant Cheeto. It isn’t cute. It isn’t a hobby. Writing is, unfortunately, what I do.

Cheers.

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Not About Easter

Getting back to the root of blogging with uninterrupted, narcissistic rambling.

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This post was supposed to be about Easter and “look at our family photo” (which I forced everyone to take) and Waylon’s Easter baskets and how indescribably sweet he’s become with his wet kisses and affectionate hugs. But all I can think about is his doctor’s appointment in a half hour and how I hate when people spend their whole life whining and how I can’t write about that because then everyone will think I’m talking about them and then they’ll have to watch what they say because it might end up on the Internet.

Whenever someone asks, “Oh no, is this going to end up on the blog?” another blogger loses their wings.

Sometimes I wonder what would happen if we all had Aspergers and said exactly how we feel when we felt it. It would be awkward, except we’d all have Aspergers so we wouldn’t know the difference. Instead of responding “Yes, that would be lovely!” when your friend who isn’t really your friend asks you to lunch, you could just say, “Hell no, woman! I’ve got a whole other season of Downton Abbey to watch!” And instead of saying “Yes!” and “Sure!”and “I’d love to!” when your cousin’s sister’s friend’s wife asks you to attend her Tupperware party, you could just say, “I would rather sit at home and stare at the wall.”

It would be fantastic.

The other day someone was talking about Italy and I felt that feeling in the pit of my stomach when you really want to contribute to the conversation but you don’t want to be the white-girl humblebragging about her white-girl education trips to Europe. So I kept my mouth shut. The truth is that no one cares if you’ve been to Italy unless they’ve also been to Italy or are planning to go to Italy and are wondering if they should exchange any money. I am telling you this out of love, because I’ve been there. I’ve taken incredible trips and seen incredible things and had to face the devastating reality that no one gives a shit.

I know it hurts. Console yourself with the fact that you have been to Italy.

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February: Write A Book (Day 29)

Things I Enjoy More Than Writing A Book

1. Stepping on a lego

2. Stepping on a lego and then stepping on another lego

3. Finding hair in my baby’s butt

4. Finding hair in my mouth

5. Finding hair that has been in my baby’s butt in my mouth

6. Hair on the soap

7. Hair in the salad

8. Pap smears

9. Wet socks

10. Longs Lines At The Post Office

Whatever, I wrote half a book. I did what I set out to do but I did not enjoy it. I thought I would, but it made me feel anxious and overwhelmed. At times I felt like no one in the world would ever want to read such ridiculous, blathering crap and at other times I felt like WHY AM I NOT SHARING THIS RIGHT NOW. Mostly I felt depressed and wanted it to be March.

I will finish, but not right this second.

It’s about Waylon and parenting and what happens when your baby nurses for 8 out of the 10 hours he’s also sleeping (extremely long nipples).

I’m sure you could have guessed.

The End.

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I Hate February (Day 6)

I wrote a post earlier today that I later took down. I did this for two reasons:

1) I rushed when I wrote it.

2) It was what I like to call “a filler post,” something I slap up because I’m too busy (or lazy) to write anything of substance.

In short, it needed more work. Thank you to those who commented, I will republish it later when I can devote more time to it.

I’m not sure why I thought writing a book in February would be no big deal. So far, forcing myself to read and write every day has made me a bit grumpy.

Here are a few things I’d rather do than sit down and write:

1) Empty the dishwasher.

2) Dust the window sills.

3) Put a fork through my eye.

For the record, Pinterest has now become the replacement time waster that used to be Facebook. This morning I wasted hours looking at novelty baby toys and short hair cuts for August. I need to get a grip.

I will leave you with a few words by those who came before me, some of my favorite quotes on writing.

As a precautionary measure, I will not be posting as much this month because you deserve so much more than filler posts. That is something I know for sure.

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I am irritated by my own writing. I am like a violinist whose ear is true, but whose fingers refuse to reproduce precisely the sound he hears within.
-Gustave Flaubert

I was working on the proof of one of my poems all the morning, and took out a comma. In the afternoon I put it back again. -Oscar Wilde

People are certainly impressed by the aura of creative power which a writer may wear, but can easily demolish it with a few well-chosen questions. Bob Shaw has observed that the deadliest questions usually come as a pair: “Have you published anything?” – loosely translated as: I’ve never heard of you – and “What name do you write under?” – loosely translatable as: I’ve definitely never heard of you. -Brian Stableford

Loafing is the most productive part of a writer’s life.  -James Norman Hall

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